My husband's home... he's home. You know, the one that's been living in southern California for the past 9 months. Nine loooooong months of single parenting, testing our marriage, my patience and making learn to how to be a better mom all on my own. But last night at around he walked through the door at around 8:15p and there were two very excited little girls and one big one.
These past two weeks have been hard. Scarlet fever for the three kids, strep for me and I think maybe in my head I knew the end was coming. I was done, finished. My on-going joke is that I'd given up my patience for lent, but that is how I felt. It felt no matter how much I gave to the kids it was never enough, no one was listening and I've felt drained physically and emotionally.
Maybe this is supposed to be my lesson for this lentin season, that my cup or soul or whatever will have time to heal from this time. That by the time this six weeks is over I will have been revived, reborn and found myself again.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Less Bedrooms
As I was waking up this morning I began really thinking about our house, our space and our bedrooms. We live in a fairly large house for a family of five, too big.... much, much too big when you're the only one cleaning it, but when we were looking we were bursting out of the seams of our starter home. In the course of 20 months we went from a dual working adults to a toddler, a newborn, SAHM and a husband working from home. It was crazy! My poor husband was having to make sales/business calls from the car in the garage. When we bought our current house we made sure there was another room for baby #3 (Corrine), home office and a nice guest room for my dad who winter's with us. Yes... plenty of room. More than we would need.
Back to this morning.... as I'm waking up, I removed Maggie's foot from my left knee and stole the covers back from Kailey. I began to really think about the fact that though the house has um... 5 bedrooms, with Todd in CA on this 9 month detail, we occupy a total of 2. Two! My mind started doing all this crazy math... like, holy moly, we could totally just move into a 2 bedroom apartment and think (THINK!) about all that space I wouldn't have to clean. Think of the money we'd save, think of all the stuff we could get rid of and did I mention all the stuff I wouldn't have to clean?
Even when Todd is home Kailey and Maggie normally sleep in the same room. Maggie has a very lovely, lavender room (done with dragonflies, cute), but the two girls prefer to sleep together. I like to recall parts of Little House on the Prairie books where Mary and Laura snuggle together when they are cold and such, that's what I think of the girls. Mostly I think they like to wake each other up early in the morning and play, but whatever as long as they aren't fighting. Even with that it's only 3 bedrooms occupied in the house.
We could soooo downsize. I'm in the mood to downsize, is it the economy, the recession or just this point of life? I'm ready for things to be simpler and less bedrooms just seems to be a good place to start.
Back to this morning.... as I'm waking up, I removed Maggie's foot from my left knee and stole the covers back from Kailey. I began to really think about the fact that though the house has um... 5 bedrooms, with Todd in CA on this 9 month detail, we occupy a total of 2. Two! My mind started doing all this crazy math... like, holy moly, we could totally just move into a 2 bedroom apartment and think (THINK!) about all that space I wouldn't have to clean. Think of the money we'd save, think of all the stuff we could get rid of and did I mention all the stuff I wouldn't have to clean?
Even when Todd is home Kailey and Maggie normally sleep in the same room. Maggie has a very lovely, lavender room (done with dragonflies, cute), but the two girls prefer to sleep together. I like to recall parts of Little House on the Prairie books where Mary and Laura snuggle together when they are cold and such, that's what I think of the girls. Mostly I think they like to wake each other up early in the morning and play, but whatever as long as they aren't fighting. Even with that it's only 3 bedrooms occupied in the house.
We could soooo downsize. I'm in the mood to downsize, is it the economy, the recession or just this point of life? I'm ready for things to be simpler and less bedrooms just seems to be a good place to start.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Going on and growing up
Seriously. Must do this. It's my new years resolution (a tad late) or maybe a little something for lent, thought how does it really tie in... not like I'm giving up something time maybe, and is it reeeeally helpful, in a globally way? May be stretching it, either way, I must get this thing up and running. So I added (finally) a pic of the girls, one of the shots my wonderful photog took at our Christmas photo shoot, the kids are fast asleep and I'm catching up on Big Love.
Aren't my girlies adorable? Kailey, my oldest, recently cut her hair off to her chin, with it stacked in back. What a change and in an instant I saw a glimpse of her as a teenager and beyond. Oh what an ache to my mother's heart. I feel like I can literally see her growing more mature before my eyes, starting homework before I asking, helping with her little sister and my need to reprimand her or correct her daily is growing less and less. This new 'do can deny it no more, my little girl, my first baby is growing up.
Aren't my girlies adorable? Kailey, my oldest, recently cut her hair off to her chin, with it stacked in back. What a change and in an instant I saw a glimpse of her as a teenager and beyond. Oh what an ache to my mother's heart. I feel like I can literally see her growing more mature before my eyes, starting homework before I asking, helping with her little sister and my need to reprimand her or correct her daily is growing less and less. This new 'do can deny it no more, my little girl, my first baby is growing up.
ps - sorry for the bad pic. the only pic i have so far is from my phone.
~ Michelle
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